Hmm. Lets see where to start. Since this is my first post most likely it may sound more like a rant & will be rather random & jump around alot. For lack of a better choice of words, this is where I will "dump my baggage in order to proceed forward." I am a huge fan of quotes, so from time to time I will likely drop a few into my posts. The following quote seemed quite fitting, so here it is"
"The best day of your life is the one which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuse, no one to lean on, rely on or blame. This great gift is yours-it is an amazing journey-and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. The day your understand this, is the day your life truly begins."
I have a "personality DNA of CVI" To keep you from being bored with all the details of that, basically I would term myself as being a "free floating hippie" personality. Not alot upsets me, I care more about helping others than myself (which is probably my greatest flaw) & that materialistic stuff truly don't mean a whole lot to me. Don't get me wrong, I like nice stuff, nice cars, & nice homes, but there is more to life for me than striving for that.
A while back I came to realize that to expect others to make me happy was simply setting too high of a standard. To err is human & thus expecting another person to complete me or make me happy, was just setting myself & them up for failure. I feel happiness is a choice we make, not an emotion that we should seek.
The past few years have been an ongoing battle of ups & downs, chasing & fixing, (I try to fix everything), job changes, suprises that smack you in the face, learning who to trust & who not to trust, learning you can't fix stupid, & that life should be lived.
I absolutely HATE schedules, couldn't adhere to one if I had to, thank goodness I'm fortunate enough to make my own.
You can't always look back & stress about the past. What is done is done & from this moment forward I can only put the pieces back together & make what is now the best I can. I have to forgive & move on, when I say this, I mean truly "letting go", giving all the hurt & pain to God and moving forward. Not to give up trusting everyone, just learning who you can & can't. If we all gave up on the notion, how could we ever truly experience Love & all the good there is out there. I have been battling PCOS for many years now, only to finally have gotten the best results ever back in March. I'm pretty much back to normal, of course what normal is to me! PCOS in itself brought alot of weight gain.. depression.. side affects.. tons of different medicines... etc & hit right after I lost my younger brother & continued my health downward from there. But, the reason for the blog is for me to let go of all my past pains, hurts & struggles. Thanks to my new positive outlook, alkaline water, God, Great Friends & Family I am letting go and moving on. So this will hopefully be my last post about all the negative past & from here on out it will all be positive for me, moving forward & changing directions.
So to begin that out, I am in the process of starting my own real estate company. I have decided its easier for me to work for myself, as mentioned earlier, I don't adhere to others schedules well (the self diagnosed ADHD side of me), I don't like being mandated & my creativity crushed, & I really just want to be allowed to be me! So here is to lifes journey & a new beginning to me! More shorter posts to come.................